As graduation as been rapidly approaching I am starting to feel all sorts of mixed emotions. Some of the most obvious ones are fear and nervousness. Mostly this is coming from the fact that I have yet to find a job. Every time I think about graduation, that is the only thing I can focus on. I am going to try and get this out of my mind however so I can enjoy my last few weeks of school without letting the stress drive me up a wall. I know I will find a job eventually, I just wish it could be now. Luckily, my parents are not worried about the fact that I will be coming home in May to be a permanent vegetable on the couch. I am going to have to make this resolution to keep my sanity these next few weeks.
Okay well besides the lack of a job, I guess there are other ways I feel about graduation. Well, I guess it is not feelings as much about Graduation but more about leaving Marquette. I was sitting outside today and soaking up the sun, waving to people here and there or having a short chat. Its not like it was just earlier today that I realized that Marquette had become my home, but it is moments like these that really make me appreciate my experiences here. I am not sure if I will miss the familiarity of it all or just the experience in general. I love that I can walk around campus and run into a familiar face in Walgreens or the Spirit Shop and that I know exactly how long it will take me to get to class in the morning to each of the different buildings. Waiting until 9:30 on Monday mornings for the dining hall menu to be posted or getting a Marquette Newsbrief on Monday afternoons have become part of my routine. Meeting Rose at the dining hall for lunch on Tuesdays or ordering a $5 pizza before my evening class, Wednesdays going to Beta Alpha Psi meetings at 6:00, and Thursday $1 margaritas at Soblemans if we can squeeze it in that week. These are all things that I will miss about being here at Marquette.
When I was talking to my grandma at Easter she said something along the lines of "You never forget you college memories", she then proceeded to recount how she learned to smoke in the sorority house and how she would skip class to go to the sugar bowl. Even as she is 91 years old and hardly remembers what she did that morning, it amazed me how fondly she can still recount these days. So naturally after hearing this I try and think about what memories will stick out to me or what I will remember when I look back at my college days in 70 years. The thing is, I don't really know which ones will happen to stand out more than others because as I think of it now there are so many things that come to mind. However as I come to close to graduation I can't help but think how I am the luckiest girl to have gotten to have this experience. Over the course of 4 years I have found a place that I can truly call home and that I know will continue to be home even though I no longer live here. I have made friends that will be around after I graduate. I found a major that I love and am excited to pursue after graduation (even though I don't have a job now). I was able to travel to 2 different continents and many different countries (I will never be grateful enough for my parents allowing this)!! Overall I give Marquette an A on customer satisfaction (LOL I am cheesy).
Anywho, I will stop my emotional rambling. Honestly I may even post another blog about this because my level of procrastination is at an all time high (Senioritis am I right?) TTFN
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